It has been 2 months since you left us from the death of incurable nasty cancer. From the day you left us, I have also developed a deadly incurable nasty disease of heartache, grieving, sadness, missing and longing for you. If the morphine was your medicine to masked your pain, my medicine is all the memories we shared. I am very fortunate that we have so many videos, photos, emails, chats, music, book and many things that help me to ease my pain and somehow it turns into a smile and feeling the love that never ends. So sad that we have to battle a different kind of the pains but I as I have said before to you that I would rather go through with this alone than having you in our lives without a good quality life you deserve. I know this deadly disease will only be cured when I see you again. xxx i love you so much xxx